i wrote this poem today in memory of my sweet baby niece or nephew.
My Heart Aches
My heart aches to hold you dear,
to kiss your little face and nibble your ear.
To smell your sweet baby scent,
to hear your sweet cries, your first giggle and your first smile.
I love you so much and it breaks my heart that I will never
be able to meet you and hold you,
and to be the auntie that I wanted to be for you.
I am gonna miss getting that burp out when noone else can,
and changing those poopy diapers just because I can.
I will miss the baby turrets that I get, and the pit in my tummy,
and me wanting to just SQUEEZE you till I heard that cute little grunt.
I dreamed of the day that I would see you be born.
I dreamed of the laughter and the joy that you would bring to this world.
I dreamed of watching you grow older and of cousin dyllan and Ashley playing with you.
I dreamed of what you would look like.
Would you have your momma’s eyes, your daddy’s ears? Ethan’s lips? Kaiden’s smile?
I dreamed of all these things and I still do,
I love you so much my sweetie, cutie pie.
Love you with all of my heart,
your bestest auntie
